It’s easy to say WoW is just a game. That we should just do what we want to do, because that’s what we pay for. That the relationships we build are ultimately shallow and easily forgotten when we move on to other ventures.
Well, it’s all bullshit.
It’s no secret I have been comparatively unhappy in my current Cenarius guild as of late. I moved Saresa because she just wasn’t seeing any raiding action on Cenarius, and I figured if I was going to change guilds, I may as well go the full hog and change to somewhere where the raid times didn’t totally suck balls. However, I worked my ass off on Hermia to try and gear her enough to heal most anything. Now, she is currently at just under 2k + heals, and is holding her own excellently in the Ulduar 25’s my old guild Arcis has been kind enough to drag me through when they are short a healer.
Unfortunately, most every effort that I make to make Hermia’s gear somewhat acceptable just doesn’t get noticed. It has gotten to the point where I make comments in guild chat so that people are aware of where her gear currently stands. I’m not asking to be taken to every run, but I am asking to at least get the chance to go to them.
As a bit of history as to what has happened before (so that this all makes sense)… we have to go way back into the days of Cenarius Saresa.
Sar signed up for every Ulduar run she could possibly make. Now, she was never taken, of course, but she signed up regardless. She went to every guild run that she could possibly go to, helped out in heroics, helped out in non-heroics, didn’t mooch off the guild, and pugged her butt off whenever she couldn’t get a guild run to try and improve her gear. Regardless, she was always told that she was not able to go to Ulduar runs (due to poor gear, latency, and everything else under the sun), and just sat on the side lines. Eventually, this wore thin, and she transferred…
…where she was immediately able to do an average of 4k DPS. Not great, but equal to most of her old guilds DPS.
Now, back to present day land…
I didn’t want to see the same thing happening to Hermia, and it felt like it was. So, I expressed the following to my GM’s
- I am considering rejoining Arcis. They have expressed some interest in having a Sar-mutation back on board, and I know that I can get along just fine there
- The main reason for this reconsideration is that I have never been able to run anything with Reforged past Naxx level. The vast majority of my progress on both toons has been through PuGs.
- The other consideration, and the one that really is the kicker, is that it makes no sense to run with Arcis each week and not be able to get EP-GP points. It’s silly.
The response to this was the following
- That is fine, do what you like :-) after all, it’s your $15 a month
- In our defence, you have never signed up for anything.
That is a good point. However, it’s also hard to sign up for things if you do not get invited to them. I signed up for every run I was able to make. I was crushed when I was rejected for those runs week after week. The GMs said that they weren’t aware of the ‘no go for Sar’ situation, as an officer leads the runs. But unfortunately they didn’t seem to understand how that has shaped my understanding of the sign up process. People would sign up and not be taken. People would log on at the right time and not be signed up, and be taken. It was a frustrating system.
The final straw was the other day. The guild was in an Ulduar 10 and needed a healer. Hermia was available, had healed Ulduar 25 well past what they had cleared, and had already proven herself to be able to pull her weight in random PuGs that other guildies had helped heal in. I know healing meters certainly aren’t everything, but I am generally right near the top, my assignments do –not- go down unless something goes majorly wrong, and I often help other people cover theirs when I notice they are having trouble (by the way, is that poor healer etiquette?) I have ‘saved’ a couple of people in tight situations, and I would like to think that PvP healing has actually improved my PvE game significantly.
However, they got another guildie who wasn’t playing at the time to jump online and do the job. Without even looking in guild. That really struck a nerve.
It turns out a lot of this has apparently been miscommunication between officers, or a lack of communication. The Raid Leader just plain outright doesn’t invite me to things (and since the RL is also my boyfriend… well, you can imagine he copped a LOT of snark from myself after I looked like an idiot talking to the GMs about this. Something along the lines of ‘I’m sorry, I’ll add you to the list’ followed by ‘You can stick your pity invites somewhere dark and stinky’).
At any rate, after a somewhat circular conversation which didn’t make sense entirely… it seems I have upset at least one of the guild leaders somehow. Today barely a word was spoken to me by either of them, and you know something? It kinda hurts. These are people I have known for the vast majority of the time I have played WoW. Most everything I have ever run, I have run with at least one of them at some point. When I felt that it was time to leave Arcis, theirs was the guild that I looked forward to being a part of. They are wonderful people to talk to, to spend time in game with, and just to know in general. They are fantastic players of the game, but even if they weren’t, it wouldn’t affect my opinion or feelings in the slightest. To be utterly ignored by them is painful. I consider all of my in game friends to be right up there with my out of game friends. Sure, we can’t get a coffee or anything together, but those are the people I talk to after a rough day at work. When there’s some family problem. When I just feel like kicking back and spending time with friends. Losing friends is not something I take lightly.
I don’t know… maybe they are upset or angry or feeling betrayed that I am leaving (again). The frustrating aspect of all of this is that a large part of me doesn’t want to leave: I have so many wonderful friends in Reforged, and I would miss being guilded there terribly. At the same time though, I don’t handle rejection well, and being rejected week after week after week to run anything other than farm content gets frustrating and painful. It doesn’t matter that it wasn’t intended rejection, it’s still there and it still stings.
So… $15 a month, do what you like, it doesn’t matter? Yeah, right…