I have a secret I have to spill
It’s really hard to come back to World of Warcraft.
There. I said it. Done bun can’t be undone.
I always thought that quitting WoW would be one of the hardest things. It’s kinda like when I gave up chocolate for a year – I thought it would be near impossible. People said I wouldn’t last a week. Sure, I cheated a little… I ate Nutella, I still ate chocolate cake, but I didn’t have any real, honest to God bonafide Chocolate for a whole year. By the end of that year, I wasn’t really hanging for chocolate anymore. I had kinda gotten used to it!
Well… I have found myself a Nutella. I have found myself a chocolate cake. While I haven’t been able to play WoW, I have played some Warcraft III. I have re-read all my books. I have immersed myself in my (frankly demanding) job. Finding the time to get WoW and blogging back into my already cramped schedule has been difficult. Almost impossible. If I didn’t need to sleep, then sure, it would be fine. But I look around and see that I still have to vacuum the house, I haven’t finished unpacking from when I got in last night, I have a load of washing waiting to be hung out and another to go in the machine, and my car needs washing. WoW is slipping further and further down the list of priorities.
This doesn’t mean I will be quitting. No sirree. It just means that I will be coming back to the game, and to the blog, on my own terms. I won’t be letting other things slip to make sure that I have an entry up every day. I won’t be ditching social engagements because I had a raid to go to. I certainly wont be slacking off on my job to make sure I can keep up here on the blog.
I tried to play the other day. I got caught up doing all the things I found exciting when I first played – fishing to see what I would catch, cooking to see what I could make, running around just LOOKING at things. I tried to raid, and it was like learning how to walk again. I couldn’t remember my key bindings. I had trouble working out spell rotations. I was so busy focusing on where the hell all my buttons were that I couldn’t even watch what I was doing. My situational awareness was well and truly fubared. I was so stressed out about what damage I might be doing or not doing that I died continuously. It’s not fun being thrown back into the deep end.
I figure I will be back to my usual blogging maybe in a month or two. Hell, I might be able to blog most every day regardless! I just can’t get WoW back in my life properly. When I do log in I feel at a loss for something to do, I am out of rhythm and step. Quitting WoW cold turkey is bloody hard. Getting back in like nothing ever happened is harder.
… I sound like one of those ‘Quit’ smoking ads.